Saturday, August 11, 2012

A Controlled Environment

Lately, I've been working in a pressure-cooker.  Normally, during times like this, I go into 'Control Mode' and attempt to micro-manage everything and everyone around me.
But the sad truth is, I'm finding it hard to care. 

There comes a point in everyone's career that makes them feel this way. You know, that feeling like no matter how hard you work, shit happens so why care so much?
For me, I think it has a lot to do with age and the fact that I want to start focusing on more than just making billion-dollar companies even more money than they could possibly ever need.  In other words, I want to shake-off my 'Workaholic' label.

I wrote a while back about the pitfalls of working at a management level, ie. managing people.  But it's not just managing your direct reports that causes headaches, it's managing the relationship with fellow managers/colleagues. 
There is absolutely no course in school that can prepare you for dealing with fostering relationships with your colleagues.  It's something that you learn over time.  It's something that you need to work at every day (much like your personal relationships) to ensure a positive work environment.  And it's the key to success for both you and the company you work for.
Am I good at this?  Kind of.  Although lately, I feel like I'm losing my edge and I feel the Control Freak building up inside of me again.  I'm trying hard to keep it at bay.

I'm going to start planning my next vacation - travel always has a way of settling my nerves.  And maybe, just maybe, I may start caring again.


Jai Joshi said...

Part of me thinks that getting to the point of not caring is healthy. It's your minds way of letting go and not letting the stress overpower you. Go with it.

I'm sorry to hear that you're so busy right now. Hang in there, mate, I'm rooting for you.


Exploding Unicorn said...

Apathy isn't a fault; it's a super power. It makes you impervious to bullets and office politics. Don't quote me on the bullets part, though.